Hi, I’m Chrissy Marquardt
I am a proud immigrant and an island girl from Jamaica living on a farm in small-town Oregon with my husband and three sons.
I am called many things, but to the people I love most in this world, I am a wife, fierce mama bear to my 3 man cubs, big sis, little sister, Aunty, cuzzy (cousin), daughter, daughter-in-law, loyal friend, loyal sister-friend, godmother, colleague, client, life-long student, adventurer, traveler, creative free spirit, maker and crafter of bath and body gifts, and so much more.
As A Coach, I Believe…
That we need to let go of resistance, get out of our own way, and step into surrender so we can let our heart have its chance to speak.
That our deepest desires are worthy of our surrender, our courage, and pursuit.
That the pursuit of our deepest desires will force us to confront every single demon that we’ve ever buried in the graveyard of our heart.
And I am here to serve and empower you to dance courageously with the demons in your heart so that your angels can sing.
My Call To Life Coaching
And Choosing Courage over Comfort
I’ve always been that person that’s full of a million ideas. It seemed that my perpetual problem was trying to implement all of my million ideas at the same time. I was always willing to go all-in on something that interested me but quickly lost interest when it “didn’t work out” the way that I expected it to.
It felt that I was always seeking novelty from each new idea, tactic, or strategy that came across my radar, thinking that each new “thing” would help me to find what I was looking for. I was more in love with the potential possibility and the outcome of something, rather than being willing to fall in love with the process of getting to my results.
I quite literally spent my days in FOMO (Fear of Missing Out) instead of JOMO (the Joy of Missing Out.) I almost never gave myself space and time to go deeper to bring my next big idea to fruition. Instead, I chose to cast my net wider and wider, always doing more and more, leaving a trail of unrealized potential and dreams that eventually faded away into the cobwebs of my subconscious mind and heart, to collect dust.
I was living my best life in the comfort zone of shiny objects, distractions, and excess productivity. Doing for the sake of doing without direction or aim.
All of that changed on October 27, 2018, when I gently but lovingly got called out on my bullshit by my coach.
I was participating in a group coaching session, learning about the light and shadow side of our primary human drivers.
I was unfamiliar with the concept and learned that our shadow side is an unacknowledged part of our personality that can inhibit us from moving forward, especially when we are attempting to make a significant change in our lives. Our human drivers are our basic human needs and explain why we do what we do.
When I learned about the light and shadow side of Love & Connection as a driver, that felt like the “easy” choice. It didn’t quite feel complete, but it felt convenient.
And then I heard about Variety & Uncertainty.
The Light: “Risk-takers, likes surprises, creativity, experiences, novelty..”
The Shadow: “Not enough clarity, lack of predictability, indecisiveness..”
And the one that completely stopped me in my tracks “…inconsistency is their consistency.”
That sounded exactly like me. And as I had that initial thought, up came my walls and my Dam of Denial. My fragile ego was unwilling to wrap its mind around everything I had just heard. I was unwilling to tell the truth about myself to myself.
In an attempt to be validated by my “easier” choice, I tried, unsuccessfully, to convince my coach that I belonged over in Love & Connection, and I was no longer the person who belonged over in Variety & Uncertainty. That was not me.
She wisely responded:
“Our primary drivers do not change unless we experience trauma. You may have handed the map to Love and Connection, but if Variety & Uncertainty is where you have been all of your life, then that is where you need to be.”
She said something in a way in a way that I had never heard before. And when I heard those things, it stirred things within me that I didn’t even know needed to be stirred up.
The Dam of Denial broke.
Every single demon that I had ever buried and stuffed away in the graveyard of my heart, clawed their way through to my conscious mind.
They started to kick around the dust in my heart chambers, and stir up the emotional cobwebs of shame, fear, worthiness, embarrassment, and all of the stories associated with those emotions. Ready to confront me and ready for a wrestling match.
I saw them clearly for the first time, and they scared the shit out of me.
I was both lost and found at that moment. I was lost, because the shaky foundation upon which I had built my life and my identity had been completely shattered. I was found because my heart finally had her moment to speak up for the first time in a very long time.
I continually lost the wrestling match with my demons for about 6 months before I could muster the courage to start having conversations with them outside the wrestling ring.
Eventually, we skipped the wrestling matches altogether and started meeting for coffee and tea instead. Our confrontations turned into conversations and I was finally able to hear the lessons they had been trying to pass on all along.
That the thing that I was seeking all along was within me, seeking me too.
That my value, my worth, and my being come from within me, not from outside of me. External self-worth is dissatisfying and utterly exhausting.
That when I ignore the things I fear the most, it doesn’t go away or disappear into the ethers. It manifests itself in other areas of my life – my business, my clients, my money, and my relationships.
Knowing that my self-worth and value comes from within me gave me the freedom to stop doubting myself, to stop doing more, and to start doing less. To go deeper instead of wider and to create space in my life for the miracle of coming back to myself through self-love, clarity, and purpose.
My life is now happening for me in the Discomfort Zone, and I willingly embrace the darkness of my shadow to find the clarity of my light on the other side of the discomfort.
Instead of a wrestling match, I have the courage to show up each day to dance with the demons in my heart, so that my angels can rejoice and sing.
Chrissy is a wife, momma, sister, daughter, loyal sister-friend, aunty, creative spirit, proud immigrant, maker, courageous visionary, life coach, and healer, and facilitator of transformation and change.
She believes that (1) your deepest desires are worthy of your surrender, your courage, and your pursuit, (2) the pursuit of your deepest desires will force you to confront every single demon that you have ever buried in the graveyard of your heart, and (3) when you dance courageously with the demons in your heart, your angels will sing and your dreams will rejoice.
Chrissy works with women, womxn, dreamers, visionaries, and possibilitarians who are ready to break through their own limitations and embrace a legacy of courage, empowerment, and possibility. She uses her powers of intuition, creativity, and self-care rituals to create safe spaces for you to awaken your inner healer so that you can heal yourself – at the intersection of self-nourishment and personal development.
Chrissy brings NLP, journaling, and self-care craft therapy to her coaching practice. When she’s not coaching or teaching, Chrissy can be found chasing her sons and husband around the farm, exercising, cooking, crafting handmade bath and body products for friends, family, and clients, or hosting a party (or a beach retreat!) with friends.
Education & Training
200 Hour Training – Graduate of Awaken Your Life, Accredited Diploma in Coach Training by the Association for Coaching (ACDT).
120 Hour Training – Practitioner of Neuro-Linguistic Programming, Accredited by the Association for Integrative Psychology.
Member, Association of Coaching Organization
Member, Association of Integrative Psychology
Bachelor’s of Business Administration, University of Portland
“Courage is the miracle and the magic that puts our dreams to work. Do you have the courage to dance with the demons in your heart, so that your angels can sing and your dreams can rejoice?”